Come and gone

The trip to Illinois has come and gone. It was fun. I had a really good time, even though it may not have seemed like it.

The Ren. Faire was awesome. Sooo many shops with soooo many beautiful clothes, books, jewelry, figurines, and so on. It was a great way to spend a Sunday.

The zoo was pretty good, though it made me miss the kids. I loved seeing the animals even though they weren't very active. I don't blame them really, it was a scorcher of a day.

The museum was pretty cool. Of course, my favourite part was the Egyptian exhibit. It's the closest I'll ever get to the real thing, so....yeah.

I did have a bunch of pictures, but when I changed the batteries in my camera, I lost all but 4 or 5 from the museum. Yep. All I have are a few pics of a dead T-Rex named Sue (I didn't ask why), one of Carl (which I don't think he realized that I had taken one of him) and a few of the Egyptian exhibit. Sigh. I'm working on getting more.

I think that my favourite part of the trip was just sitting around during breakfast, dinner or over coffee. Just listening to Geoff, Carl and Shayne (and Sam one night) talk and be silly. My stomach muscles hurt for a few days after I returned. I haven't laughed that much in a while. Don't get me wrong, there has been laughter, but not to that extent. It felt great...painful, but great.

Hrm...let's see. Oh! The best night was when we went to Carl and Steph's place. Movies and Magic! It was awesome! Of course, I didn't win a single game. I think Carl won all three that we played. *glares* Oh well, it was still fun.

Anyhoo, that's all that I have right now. Yes, this is being posted two weeks after the trip. So sue me. :P

Peace, love and fluffy bunnies

Jamie

Ack! So Close!

In two weeks from today, I will be on my way to Illinois. Eek! I'm nervous. Very nervous for various reasons.

Plans have changed a little, but not much. There are pseudo back-up plans in case of rain or lack of desire to do what we had planned.

Recently I've been wondering if I'll be able to talk to Carl and Geoff in person like we talk online or will I be too shy to pick on them like I do when chatting. Heh. I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

Wow. My brain is already starting to hurt. Not wearing my glasses right now because I don't want to get hair dye on them. I is smart.

Jussi is off in Toronto for the weekend. It was my idea. He did attempt to get me to go instead of him, but I didn't want to. I wanted to be here. I'll take a trip without him some other time.

Hm..let's see. What else is going on....Oh yeah. Nothing I care to post here. Sorry. Anyhoo, that's it for me. Waiting patiently for the dye to set in, for Jussi to call and tell me that they arrived in one piece, for Geoff to get home and for Carl to get to work. I think I'll have a nap or something.

Peace, love and fluffy bunnies!

So...damn...close...

It's June 23. That means that there is exactly one month and one week until we'll be on our way to Illinois.

I seem to be getting less excited about the trip and more nervous. At this point, I really shouldn't be. There's no real reason for it. Sigh. I'll be fine once there and settled. I know that I can't wait to see Carl, Geoff and Sam. I'm excited about meeting Carl's wife as well. From what I've heard, she's a really nice person, though shy. Heh. Kinda like me when meeting people face to face. Yes, I will be shy. It's just the way I am. I know that it won't take me long to warm up to them though. Carl won't let me. ^_^

Anyhoo, I still haven't received my new birth certificate and change of name certificate. I'm starting to get really worried about that. Without them, I can't make the trip. Grrr... I will be very pissed off if I can't. Of course, there isn't anything I can do to speed up the process. All I can do is call them and find out where in the process everything is and then wait. Get excited when I see the mail being delivered and promptly become disappointed when there's nothing there. Fun stuff, neh?


Peace, love and fluffy bunnies,

Karmi (aka Jamie)

Almost there....

Well, the hotel room has been booked, plans have been made (though I've never been known to stick to plans) and various other arrangements have been made and we're still over a month away from heading to Illinois. There's one last thing that is needed. My bloody birth certificate and change of name certificate. I'm starting to get nervous. Quite nervous. If this trip needs to be posponed or anything because of a stupid (yet important) piece of paper, I'm going to be livid.

Deep breath. Sigh. Okay, better now.

Anywho, it seems that there has been a few things added to the list of things to do. Now, there's a Ren Faire. Yay! Wenches and cider and a whole lot of really cool stuff. It's too bad one of us will have to miss it. Bah! Sleep? You don't need sleep! :P

Yeah. I'm excited. Getting more excited as we get closer to leaving . I can just imagine what I'm going to be like on the day before we leave, the day we leave and when we get there. I can't wait to meet Carl, Geoff and Sam. Yay!

Since it seems that I'm just rambling now, I'll just stop.

Peace, love and fluffy bunnies!

Jamie

One Step Closer

Well, we've booked the hotel room. Doing so makes the trip that much more real. It's getting close. Of course, there are still some looming issues, but I'm sure that all will work itself out. I still wish we could stay a few more days longer than we are, but whatever. I guess I shouldn't complain. I should be happy that I'm actually getting the chance to do this.


At any rate, there isn't too much more to write about at the moment. There was, but I have too many distractions right now.

Updates

It's been a while since I've posted here. There isn't too much that I need to give updates on. Jussi received his passport the other day. Yay! I'm still waiting for my new birth certificate and change of name certificate. Sigh. I hate how long this stuff takes. I really hope that it arrives well before July gets here. If I don't have them, no trip. No trip equals a very unhappy Jamie.

Sure, it will still mean over a week with no kids, but it will be over a week with no kids in Sudbury. Bleh. It will also mean that there will be no Carl, Geoff or Sam. More unhappiness.

Heh. I'm probably doing that worrying for no reason thing that I have a bad habit of doing.

Anywho, things that we plan to do while in Illinois.

Brookfield Zoo (I think that was the one)
Shopping in Chicago
Play MTG
Roleplay a little (Yay one-nighter Call of Cthulhu!)
Monty Python (because I haven't seen any)
Black Adder (because it's full of awesome and funny as hell)
And, somewhere in there I'm hoping to get the chance to just hang out with Carl, Geoff and Sam. Not really do anything, except hang out and have a good time.

To me, this seems to be a lot to fit into four days. But, I'm sure we'll manage.

My muse is not so fickle

It seems that I am able to write again. I have no idea how long this will last. Fickle muses annoy me. My ability to write anything half decent seems to come in spurts. Sigh. At least I got one story written and sent off. Hope it's enjoyable. Of course, the inspiration for the story has been coming for the last few weeks. I had the idea, but just couldn't form the words, let alone type them out. I tried yesterday, but to no avail. Bleh. Today the words flowed like water. I started typing and just couldn't stop, which resulted in a longer than usual story for him.

I'm glad he's not grading me on these. Yeesh. I'd fail. Well, maybe not fail, but I wouldn't get a very good mark. He'll just tell me I'm being too hard on myself. Heh. He's one to talk. Always so hard on himself.

Anyway, that's pretty much it. No trip planning updates today.

Right Place Wrong Time

Always with the song titles. Hee.

So, yeah. Things have been pretty uneventful recently(Yay!). My usual talks with *Tyrasis (lol). It seems that our chats have been rather silly recently. Probably because we're both suffering from sleep deprivation. Woohoo! That's always fun! I don't mind one bit. It's nice to have silly little chats every now and then. Especially when things got pretty depressing and um...not so happy for a bit. All on my end. Sigh.

Trip to Illinois update: We have managed to save up enough money to pay for gas, the hotel room and maybe meals for a day or two. Considering that I don't eat breakfast (not in the **"normal" way) and when I'm away from home, I tend to loose my appetite. So, it won't cost much to feed me. There is also the want (and the need) to buy things while there. Why? Because it's Chicago and I need to buy stuff. Find things that I can't get here and bring them home to show people and watch them stare in awe! Oh, what fun it will be.

Right, I think I just made this my happy-and-not-at-all-nervous about the trip blogthing. XD

I have posted my concerns about the trip elsewhere (no, you don't get a link because I'm not ready to share that blog-type thing with anyone.) One person may have already discovered it, but I highly doubt it. Maybe if he had logged in sometime after DECEMBER he'd know about it. Hehehe....just poking fun. Seriously, when I'm ready to share my darker side with people, there will be a linky. Promise. =D

Now, some rather sad and depressing news. There was a shooting at Virginia Tech University today. Somewhere in the vicinity of 32 people killed and even more injured. At least it was the last time I checked it. It may be more. Apparently the shooter was found dead as well, but had no ID on him. Just two 9mm and a whole whack load of ammo. Weeeee!

Have I ever mentioned how much I despise this world in which we live?

At any rate, I'm done for now. I think that this is mostly for my amusement. I have no idea if anyone actually reads this, but judging from the links that have been clicked, someone does. ;)

*Yes, that is a nick.

**I have to wait at least two hours to eat after I wake up or I will be sick all damn day. :(

Flirt With Me

"Sometimes... you can cry until there is nothing wet in you. You can scream and curse to where your throat rebels and ruptures. You can pray, all you want, to whatever God you think will listen. And, still, it makes, no difference. It goes on, with no sign as to when it might release you. And you know that if it ever did relent... it would not be because it cared."

"Honestly, it's so difficult to truly care about so many things without, first, knowing the answers to some of the most fundamental, mind ravaging questions! How can one possibly respect the existence of something, people in this case, when that something seems to defy respect? They do such trivial things, and find amusement, even up to "so-called" maturity, in the incessant mistreatment of their own kind."

JTHM.....

Hello, I'm your Martyr

This was taken from some where else. No, I did not write it.

I say I love you. You don't need to believe me and your belief is not really necessary to me. Odds are that I just needed to say it to get it off my chest. I just wanted you to hear it, whether you believe it or not. I know it's true. I can feel it in the way my heart beats faster when you're around. I know it by the hole that's left behind when you're not. The truth is an ache I feel to have you by my side. It's the comfort of knowing that you care. It's the perfect bliss I experience when you touch me. I know it's true. You probably do to.

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Lying in my bed
I hear the clock tick,
and think of you
caught up in circles
confusion-- is nothing new
Flashback--warm nights--
almost left behind
suitcases of memories, time after--

sometimes you picture me--
I'm walking too far ahead
you're calling to me,
I can't hear what you've said--
Then you say--go slow--
I fall behind--
the second hand unwinds

if you're lost you can look--
and you will find me
time after time
if you fall I will catch you--
I'll be waiting
time after time

I don't blame you for being you, but you can't blame me for hating it

"It's the only thing she can do, when she's faced with someone she knows is better than herself. She finds something - anything - wrong with that person, and tries to draw attention to it in the hopes that others won't see what she does."

"Promise?"

"I promise."

Ah..Bureaucratic Red Tape!

Tomorrow I get to start the process of getting my name changed. At least on my birth certificate. According to the Canadian government, I have been using an illegal (or if you're some people illeagle :P) name for the last 27 years (note that I am now 27 years old). This hasn't really caused me any problems up until now. A few weeks ago, I went to get my driver's license and send away for my passport. Well, I can't do either of these things right now since the name on my birth certificate and the name that I've been using for longer than I can remember don't match. Woohoo! Now, I have to send away for an official change of name certificate to prove that I have changed my name (which I haven't). Fantastic! This might hinder my trip to Illinois to visit a couple of friends. Now, you don't absolutely need your passport to cross the border, but it does help to speed the process along. Even if I don't get the passport in time (yay for a two month backlog.) as long as I have that official document that says "Yes! This woman has paid the $137 to have her name legally changed!", I should be okay. I just don't want to take any chances.

It would really suck if we got to the border and were told that we couldn't enter the United States because my ID is screwed up. I'd feel pretty bad about the whole things since someone else is doing the driving. And it's not a short trip either. 11.5 hours and I don't think that's taking into account all the stops that will be made along the way.

Bleh. So, tomorrow the process begins! This should be fun! Fill out forms, get a money order (No personal cheques! They're bad m'kay! Bad personal cheque! Naughty personal cheque! Go sit in the corner and think about what you almost did! Or...uh...whatever), find someone who has known me for the last 5 or more years (can't be family) have them sign said forms to say that yes, I am who I say I am, then sign, seal and deliver. No kiss though. In 4-6 weeks, I should have that handy dandy certificate and then I can finally send away for my passport, which may not arrive in time for the bloody trip. Hopefully putting the expected date of travel on the application will speed the process along a little (Crosses fingers).

Anywho, that's my rant for the night.

Peace, love and fluffy bunnies

Karmi

Feed You With a Kiss

The last couple of weeks have been interesting. Well, it would be if you could get inside my head.

Feelings come and go, but this one has been around for a while now (if you consider 4 or 5 months a while) and it just keeps growing. I don't think things have changed on the other end, but then again, I haven't asked. I'm not sure if I would get a proper response if I were to ask.

Right now, I'm going with the flow. I'm not trying to fight anything, nor am I claiming defeat at the hands of these "feelings".

What's going to happen? Who knows? It's one of those "only time will tell" situations or, maybe it isn't. Maybe nothing will come of this (which would be the better route to go). Maybe something will. Whichever the case, I'm sure that friendship will reign supreme in this situation. I'm not even sure it constitutes a situation. Then again, I can make anything into a situation and blow everything way out of proportion. Yeah, I'm good like that. :P

Maybe, I'll just continue to live it in my dreams, continue to write out my fantasies, wishes and desires. Heh. That would be useful if I actually did it. I just can't be bothered to do so. Not yet anyway. What I do say gets said to the people who need to hear it. For the most part.

Wow, can I be any more vague? I'm sure that I could be. There's reasons for my vagueness. If you don't like it, then don't read.

At any rate, enough with the babbling. I'm sure that once I get my head straightened out, I'll have more to write. If anyone is reading this, worry not. I'm good and it has nothing to do with anything that was said(or not said), done (or not done) or any one individual in particular.

Peace, love and fluffy bunnies,

~Karmi~

From Parent to Child

Just for this morning, I am going to smile when I see your face and laugh when I feel like crying.
Just for this morning, I will let you choose what you want to wear, and smile and say how perfect it is.
Just for this morning, I am going to step over laundry, and pick you up and take you to the park to play.
Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together.
Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with you in the backyard and blow bubbles.
Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one if he comes by.
Just for this afternoon, I won't worry about what you are going to be when you grow up, or second guess every decision I have made where you are concerned.
Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies, and I won't stand over you trying to fix them.
Just for this afternoon, I will take us to McDonald's and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can have both toys.
Just for this evening, I will hold you in my arms and tell you a story about how you were born and how much I love you!
Just for this evening, I will let you splash in the tub and not get angry.
Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late while we sit on the porch and count all the stars.
Just for this evening, I will snuggle beside you for hours, and miss my favorite TV shows.
Just for this evening when I run my finger through your hair as you pray, I will simply be grateful that God has given me the greatest gift ever given.
I will think about the mothers and fathers who are searching for their missing children, the mothers and fathers who are visiting their children's graves instead of their bedrooms, and mothers and fathers who are in hospital rooms watching their children suffer senselessly, and screaming inside that they can't handle it anymore.
And when I kiss you good night I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer.
It is then, that I will thank God for you, and ask him for nothing, except one more day...

Miss you more than I will let you know....

Over the past little while I've been in some sort of contact with people I haven't seen in years. It's all nostalgic and happy. Well, it's nostalgic, but not so happy. It makes me sad. I miss my old life sometimes. I miss being able to just go if I wanted to. Meeting up with friends at our favourite coffee shop (which no longer exists) and talking, playing cards, being silly and serious.

I miss all the ups and downs that were apart of my old life. We were a large group of like-minded individuals. Friends who would be there for you if you needed them. I miss the occasional love (or lust) triangles that would form. I was in a few of my own. I miss the parties that we would have. God, those were fun times. The booze and occasionally the drugs. Karmi used to be a pot head! *gasp*. I miss the good times we had. So many memories came flooding back after seen pictures that were taken almost 10 years ago. We all seemed so happy to be together. To be friends.

How things have changed. A rather large part of our old "Clique" has moved out of the city. Some are still here, but we've started families, got jobs that keep us from having a social life and for the most part, just drifted away from each other. That's the part that makes me sad.

Don't get me wrong, I love my kids and my pseudo-hubby. I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world. However, that doesn't change the fact that I really, really miss the way things used to be.

Heh. At least I have a way of keeping in touch with some of these people now.

Beautiful Girl

Today's entry will show how self-conscious I am. Heh. It was bound to happen one of these times.

I came to the realization today that I'm not happy. It's not my relationship that I'm unhappy with. Things there have been good. It's me I'm unhappy with. I'm unhappy with the way I look. No, I'm not just complaining and not doing anything about it. I am doing something about it. I just don't have much patience when it comes to myself.

I came to this realization while getting dressed this morning. I just happened to looking in the mirror. What I saw depressed me more than anything has in a while. It made me wonder how in the world anyone could find me attractive, let alone stay in a relationship with me for the last 6 years. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Heh.

I've had comments from people that I have a hard time accepting, since they've never actually seen me(other than in one picture that was taken at a weird angle in bad lighting). It takes everything in me not to unleash on them and tell them how wrong they are.

Maybe I'm just being too hard on myself. Maybe it's what I need to do. I need to be hard on myself in order to achieve the goal that I want. I was getting there. I almost had it. But failed. It's difficult and frustrating.

Now, I don't hate myself, just dislike. I know that it can be change and that I won't be happy until I do. I have started to make that change. I hope I don't fail this time....

P.S. I have fixed it so that anyone can leave comments instead of having it set so that only people who are registered with blogger.com can leave comments.

Gah!

Today is going to be a rant about Telemarketers. I'm sitting at home minding my own business, and I get a phone call. I look and it's a local number, so I answer it.

"Hello this is some dumbwit calling from some Internet company. Would you like to switch to our crappy highspeed DSL from your totally awesome highspeed Cable Internet?"

"No, I'm happy with what I have."

"But it's a good deal at $25 a month."

"I'm paying $20 right now."

"Oh, are you sure you don't want to switch."

"Uh...yeah. Besides, your service doesn't work properly in my area."

"It does now. Come on switch. You know you want to."

"No, I really don't. Bye now."

Gah! I understand. I've been there. I was a telemarketer for a while. They're just trying to do their job and make a few bucks. When I tell you the reasons for now wanting to switch, say okay and move on. Yeah, they have to push a little. But when the service you're offering me doesn't even work because we're too far from the hub, trying to sell me on it is a waste of your time and mine.

Bleh.

Peace, love and fluffy bunnies

~karmi~

Comfortably Numb

Anyone catching on to my blog titles? Heh. They really have nothing to do with the subject of the blog. Well, at least not for the most part.

Anywho, my oldest daughter's birthday is in a week. She'll be five. The time passed so quickly. Sometimes it feels like just yesterday that she was born. Now, she's in school and starting to sound smarter than both her parents. Heh. Normally, this would be the point where I'd say that I want another baby. Not this time. I got my other baby a year and a half ago. She's great, amazing and oh so cute, but the last thing I want is another one. I'm happy with my two girls and wouldn't change anything. Okay, that's a lie. There are a few things I would change, but those are things about myself, not my family. It makes me a little sad to see my babies growing so quickly. But, it is something that must happen and there's nothing you can do to stop it. You can try to shelter them, keep them "safe" from the world, but would any good parent want to do that? How are they ever going to learn how to take care of themselves if you cut them off from what's happening in the world around them? They won't. I've met people who have led sheltered lives and they have no idea how to function in the real world. No social skills, no way to adapt to their surroundings. It's sad. I don't want my girls growing up that way. They are going to get exposed to all sorts of things. The only thing I can do is make the attempt to explain and help them understand what they see and hear and how to deal with it.

I can't save them from a broken heart, I can't cut them off from all the good and bad things that they will experience throughout their lives. I will be there for them and help them through their journey, no matter what. That's the best I can do.

Peace, love and fluffy bunnies

~karmi~

Dust in the wind....

Bleh. That's how I feel right now. My day started off wonderfully. I had the chance to chat with a friend for a few hours. He's always a joy to talk to. But, now I feel....sad. I want to cry. Cry until there is nothing wet in me. Scream and yell until my throat rebels and ruptures. Heh. There's a little JTHM reference for ya.

Maybe I'm just tired and therefore overly emotional. Well, more than usual. Damn! That's pretty emotional. Today, it started with looking at pics of friend, both old and new. I think it was more the new ones, since I haven't actually met these people and really, really want to. Badly. Heh.

At any rate. I just needed to get a little out and since I have done that......

In the End

Well, the talk that I mentioned is done and over with. No one ended up getting hurt or angry. All's well that ends well....I suppose.

At any rate, just an update. I would now like to share a drink recipe with you.

Blood of Children

1oz. Triple Sec
1oz. Blackberry liqueur
Cranberry juice to taste

Enjoy!

Peace, love and fluffy bunnies

~karmi~

Running Up that Hill

I had a conversation recently that got me thinking. Not that I don't normally think. Thinking too much is what keeps me awake at night. My brain is constantly going at a million miles an hour. It's really annoying sometimes. Heh. I'm sure there are others who can relate.

At any rate, it was a nice conversation, but it was also a heartbreaking conversation. Well, I wouldn't go so far as to say it was heartbreaking. It was....upsetting in a minor way.

I'm not going to go into any detail about the conversation, since in my mind, it is not yet resolved. There needs to be more, and there will be more. When we do get the chance to continue the conversation, it may lead to an argument. I'm really hoping that it doesn't. That's the last thing I want. But if it does, I think that the only person to leave the conversation feeling hurt and angry will be me. I'll deal though. I always do. At least I think that I'll be able to deal with it. This person is.....different. They make me feel good. They add just a little more happiness to my life. I actually think that losing this person would destroy me. I haven't had a friend like this for a long time. Heh. I never thought that I could become such good friends with some one I've never actually met in real life. And yet......

I wonder if he reads this? If he does, then yay! and Hello you! =)

Right, it seems I'm starting to slip into the realm of silliness, so I'm going to end here. Rest assured that there will be more to come.

Peace, love and fluffy bunnies

~Karmi~

Even though you're the father of lies.....

Hee. I've been watching Interview with the Vampire and that's one of my favourite lines from the movie.

Anyway, I recently purchased a new digital camera. I don't have any pics of myself. Why? Because I'm not very photogenic. At least I don't think that I am. Others have argued with me, but lose that battle. I do have a few good pics of myself, none of which are recent. I'd like to have some recent pics of myself to show a few people, but they just haven't been turning out. Ah well.

Yeah, I don't really have much to write about at the moment.


Peace, love and fluffy bunnies

~karmi~

I'm having another sappy, sentimental and emotional day. It could be an email that I got or it could just be the way I am today. I dunno. At any rate, I saw these poems and thought they were nice. I'm not really sure if they actually mean any thing to me or express how I feel, but they're nice none-the-less.


Follow Me by Michelle Newton

Take my hand and follow me to that place I long to be.
Take my hand and trust my way, in that place forever stay.
Follow me toward the sand; we'll run and play, hand in hand.
Take my heart and hold it true; forever I'll stay close to you.
Seize my words and listen well, then forever I will tell.
Release your heart and feelings too, just as I will do for you.
Trust your heart and follow me, to that place we long to be.

Missing You by John Seabrook

My heart aches within from missing you,
My lips long for the feel of kissing you,
Right now all I need is to gently touch your skin,
To look into your eyes and see deep within,
Just one warm embrace,
Just to look upon your face,
Just one little touch,
From the one I love so much,
If I could gaze upon your smile,
For just a little while,
To know that you miss me too,
As I'm thinking of you,
To hear the sound of you breathe,
Knowing you'll never leave,
To see you walk up to me,
Then embrace you tenderly,
To just be with the one who's sent my heart reeling,
And brought about this downpour of emotion and feeling,
I sit here alone in my office tonight,
And pray that somehow this all turns out right,
I've never been one to do more taking than giving,
I'm not well off but I work hard for a living,
I've told you many thoughts that weren't borrowed or bought,
And in lifetime, who would have thought,
That I have found someone who was just meant for me,
I can't explain the magic or why this should be,
But there is one thing that I know for certain,
That this just ain't over till one of us draws the final curtain,
For I've seen an angel and I want you to know,
If it's my choice to make,
I'll never let you go,
Don't know what life holds, maybe there's no reason or rhyme,
To think you may be mine in a matter of time,
And though I cannot touch you and we are now apart,
My Love, you do dwell, so deep within my heart.

Ramblin' Time! w00t!

I sat down here ready to write, but then I realised that I don't really have anything to write about today. Then why am I actually writing? I'm hoping that something will come to me and low and behold! Something has.

Reason number one for posting today: I was chatting with a friend and we started talking about blogs. I mentioned how I think I have too many. Honestly, I don't think three is too many. I only update on a semi-regular basis. One blog is completely(almost) to NationStates and this one is my personal one that I use to write about most of the real life things that go on. The third was created on whim and has one glorious entry(that, is sarcasm).

Let's see. Checking memory for recent exciting events. Nope. None. Today is yet another sappy, I'm going to reminiss about everything and become overly emotional because of it kind of day. Some say that I have too many of those, but what can I say? I'm an emotional person.

Today I'm missing someone. This happens on a regular basis. Nothing new. There are actually quite a few people that I miss, but even more that I don't. Anywho, I don't really want to get into it. I'm emotional enough as it is. So, I'll just leave it at I miss him. Yuppers.

I went on a picture hunting rampage the other night and found some of the most interesting (yeah, that's the word for it.....interesting.) pictures. I'll add one or two after I'm done rambling on an on about nothing.

Oooo...and I picked up a couple of new CD's yesterday. Cash, which is the final recordings of the late, great, Johnny Cash and The Legend of Johnny Cash which is a compilation of some of the best songs that he recorded from 1955 to 2003. Great discs! Also, for anyone reading this who are Magic: The Gathering players, I picked up some new cards (a box of 75 random cards including mana and a 15 card booster) . There are some interesting cards, but I don't feel like listing them right now. Deal.

I just realised how random and scatter-brianed this entry is. Heh. Welcome to the inner workings of my brain!

Well, some of you asked for this, so this is what you get for asking me to update my blog! Hahaha! Ahem. Right. Well, it's back to the increasingly boring and oddly inactive NS. Good-bye RL. At least for the time being!

Peace, love and fluffy bunnies

~karmi~ (aka Bunny)

A New Year

So, it's a new year. Happy 2007 everyone. I'm hoping that this year will be a lot happier and less stressful than 2006 was. Of course, there were some absolutely wonderful moments for me in 2006, most of them were at the end. Starting in August. For the most part, things were pretty unhappy. But, it seems that most of it was my fault. At least that's what I've come to believe.

That's all in the past now. It's a new year, so it's time for new beginnings. A clean slate. Most use the new year to start over. I think that's what I'm going to do. Not completely start over, but I will use this new year to change a few things. Do more of some things and less of others. I will, at some point this year, travel to a place I've never been before. Maybe visit new and old friends. Most of the traveling that I want to do requires that I get on an airplane. This terrifies me, but I feel that it is time to face my fears and get over it. Part of things that I will change about myself. Also, no more holding my feelings in. I'm tired of doing this just because I don't want to hurt, piss off or be completely ostracised. Nothing comes from keeping how you feel to yourself. Now, this doesn't mean I won't have my secrets. Everyone has those now matter how honest and open they appear to be.

At any rate, I guess those few things would be my New Year's resolutions. Heh. Let's see how many of them I actually stick to.

Here's to new beginnings!