Running Up that Hill

I had a conversation recently that got me thinking. Not that I don't normally think. Thinking too much is what keeps me awake at night. My brain is constantly going at a million miles an hour. It's really annoying sometimes. Heh. I'm sure there are others who can relate.

At any rate, it was a nice conversation, but it was also a heartbreaking conversation. Well, I wouldn't go so far as to say it was heartbreaking. It was....upsetting in a minor way.

I'm not going to go into any detail about the conversation, since in my mind, it is not yet resolved. There needs to be more, and there will be more. When we do get the chance to continue the conversation, it may lead to an argument. I'm really hoping that it doesn't. That's the last thing I want. But if it does, I think that the only person to leave the conversation feeling hurt and angry will be me. I'll deal though. I always do. At least I think that I'll be able to deal with it. This person is.....different. They make me feel good. They add just a little more happiness to my life. I actually think that losing this person would destroy me. I haven't had a friend like this for a long time. Heh. I never thought that I could become such good friends with some one I've never actually met in real life. And yet......

I wonder if he reads this? If he does, then yay! and Hello you! =)

Right, it seems I'm starting to slip into the realm of silliness, so I'm going to end here. Rest assured that there will be more to come.

Peace, love and fluffy bunnies

~Karmi~

Even though you're the father of lies.....

Hee. I've been watching Interview with the Vampire and that's one of my favourite lines from the movie.

Anyway, I recently purchased a new digital camera. I don't have any pics of myself. Why? Because I'm not very photogenic. At least I don't think that I am. Others have argued with me, but lose that battle. I do have a few good pics of myself, none of which are recent. I'd like to have some recent pics of myself to show a few people, but they just haven't been turning out. Ah well.

Yeah, I don't really have much to write about at the moment.


Peace, love and fluffy bunnies

~karmi~

I'm having another sappy, sentimental and emotional day. It could be an email that I got or it could just be the way I am today. I dunno. At any rate, I saw these poems and thought they were nice. I'm not really sure if they actually mean any thing to me or express how I feel, but they're nice none-the-less.


Follow Me by Michelle Newton

Take my hand and follow me to that place I long to be.
Take my hand and trust my way, in that place forever stay.
Follow me toward the sand; we'll run and play, hand in hand.
Take my heart and hold it true; forever I'll stay close to you.
Seize my words and listen well, then forever I will tell.
Release your heart and feelings too, just as I will do for you.
Trust your heart and follow me, to that place we long to be.

Missing You by John Seabrook

My heart aches within from missing you,
My lips long for the feel of kissing you,
Right now all I need is to gently touch your skin,
To look into your eyes and see deep within,
Just one warm embrace,
Just to look upon your face,
Just one little touch,
From the one I love so much,
If I could gaze upon your smile,
For just a little while,
To know that you miss me too,
As I'm thinking of you,
To hear the sound of you breathe,
Knowing you'll never leave,
To see you walk up to me,
Then embrace you tenderly,
To just be with the one who's sent my heart reeling,
And brought about this downpour of emotion and feeling,
I sit here alone in my office tonight,
And pray that somehow this all turns out right,
I've never been one to do more taking than giving,
I'm not well off but I work hard for a living,
I've told you many thoughts that weren't borrowed or bought,
And in lifetime, who would have thought,
That I have found someone who was just meant for me,
I can't explain the magic or why this should be,
But there is one thing that I know for certain,
That this just ain't over till one of us draws the final curtain,
For I've seen an angel and I want you to know,
If it's my choice to make,
I'll never let you go,
Don't know what life holds, maybe there's no reason or rhyme,
To think you may be mine in a matter of time,
And though I cannot touch you and we are now apart,
My Love, you do dwell, so deep within my heart.

Ramblin' Time! w00t!

I sat down here ready to write, but then I realised that I don't really have anything to write about today. Then why am I actually writing? I'm hoping that something will come to me and low and behold! Something has.

Reason number one for posting today: I was chatting with a friend and we started talking about blogs. I mentioned how I think I have too many. Honestly, I don't think three is too many. I only update on a semi-regular basis. One blog is completely(almost) to NationStates and this one is my personal one that I use to write about most of the real life things that go on. The third was created on whim and has one glorious entry(that, is sarcasm).

Let's see. Checking memory for recent exciting events. Nope. None. Today is yet another sappy, I'm going to reminiss about everything and become overly emotional because of it kind of day. Some say that I have too many of those, but what can I say? I'm an emotional person.

Today I'm missing someone. This happens on a regular basis. Nothing new. There are actually quite a few people that I miss, but even more that I don't. Anywho, I don't really want to get into it. I'm emotional enough as it is. So, I'll just leave it at I miss him. Yuppers.

I went on a picture hunting rampage the other night and found some of the most interesting (yeah, that's the word for it.....interesting.) pictures. I'll add one or two after I'm done rambling on an on about nothing.

Oooo...and I picked up a couple of new CD's yesterday. Cash, which is the final recordings of the late, great, Johnny Cash and The Legend of Johnny Cash which is a compilation of some of the best songs that he recorded from 1955 to 2003. Great discs! Also, for anyone reading this who are Magic: The Gathering players, I picked up some new cards (a box of 75 random cards including mana and a 15 card booster) . There are some interesting cards, but I don't feel like listing them right now. Deal.

I just realised how random and scatter-brianed this entry is. Heh. Welcome to the inner workings of my brain!

Well, some of you asked for this, so this is what you get for asking me to update my blog! Hahaha! Ahem. Right. Well, it's back to the increasingly boring and oddly inactive NS. Good-bye RL. At least for the time being!

Peace, love and fluffy bunnies

~karmi~ (aka Bunny)

A New Year

So, it's a new year. Happy 2007 everyone. I'm hoping that this year will be a lot happier and less stressful than 2006 was. Of course, there were some absolutely wonderful moments for me in 2006, most of them were at the end. Starting in August. For the most part, things were pretty unhappy. But, it seems that most of it was my fault. At least that's what I've come to believe.

That's all in the past now. It's a new year, so it's time for new beginnings. A clean slate. Most use the new year to start over. I think that's what I'm going to do. Not completely start over, but I will use this new year to change a few things. Do more of some things and less of others. I will, at some point this year, travel to a place I've never been before. Maybe visit new and old friends. Most of the traveling that I want to do requires that I get on an airplane. This terrifies me, but I feel that it is time to face my fears and get over it. Part of things that I will change about myself. Also, no more holding my feelings in. I'm tired of doing this just because I don't want to hurt, piss off or be completely ostracised. Nothing comes from keeping how you feel to yourself. Now, this doesn't mean I won't have my secrets. Everyone has those now matter how honest and open they appear to be.

At any rate, I guess those few things would be my New Year's resolutions. Heh. Let's see how many of them I actually stick to.

Here's to new beginnings!