Does Anybody Actually Read This?

I'm still trying to figure out why I bother with these things. I don't think anybody actually reads them. If they do, they don't say anything. Maybe I need to post something rather controversial. No, I don't want to do that. I've done that in the past and it ended up, well.....bad.

I guess I keep using these blog things because I'm bored. Yeah, that's it. Boredom sets in all too quickly these days. I look forward to the evenings. I get to talk to a very good friend. I wonder if has read this? I wonder if he ever will. Not like there's anything interesting in here. I will never mention his name or any other names of people I've recently met, out of respect for them and their privacy. Yeah, I'm good like that sometimes.

I find these blog things to be a good release if you need to vent and no one is around to listen. I haven't had very much to vent about lately, mostly because I've stopped caring. Cold? Sure. Callous? Why not. It's a whole lot easier to not care than to be hurt day after day and worry about everything under the sun. Sure, there are things and people I still care about and love very much. That will never change, but they are becoming fewer and fewer each day. There are a few who have taken their special place in my heart and they will stay there forever. Awww....Karmi's gettin' all mushy. Yeah, I do that sometimes. Deal.

At any rate, I'm going to stop here for now. If anybody actually reads this stuff, don't be afraid to let me know. I like knowing.

Peace, love and fluffy bunnies

~Karmi~

Bleh

Since I'm pretty sure that most don't look at this, I feel comfortable pouring my heart out a little.

I'm tired. Tired of being lied to. I have no idea how one person can lie so much and not feel the slightest bit of guilt. I just don't understand.......


That's all.

Six Years

As of midnight (EST) Kiv and I have been together for 6 years. Take that everyone who said it wouldn't last!

No, it hasn't been the easiest, but doesn't every relationship have it's ups and downs? Of course they do.

Anyway, Kiv if you're reading this, I just want to tell you that I love you and I wouldn't trade the last 6 years for anything. I hope we have many more years together. Love you lots!

~Karmi~

Bleh

I knew it wouldn't take until I had something to talk about. So, it's December. That means the chaos that is Christmas. The shopping, the large family gatherings and wanting to spend time with friends that I will have no time for. That's the part that really gets to me. There are certain people that I would love to see during the holidays. Most live elsewhere. I have made new friends in the last 6 months or so and they are the ones that I'd really like to see. Ain't gonna happen. Even if they lived close by, I wouldn't have the time to see them. The breakdown of my Christmas stuff:

Christmas Eve: Go to the farm. No, it's not really a farm. It's just what people call it. It's Kivs grandmothers place. There will be a half million people there (well, not really but it usually feels like it) packed into a tiny space. There will be food, fun and more food. Yay! Then, it's off to my aunt and uncle's place. Again, a lot of people but in a not so small space. Easier to get away for a minute. We sit around listening to people sing badly, get drunk and listen to the kids scream about wanting to open presents. What do I want to do? Go home. We usually end up being home somewhere between 10pm and midnight. Then it's convince the kids that it's time for bed or Santa won't come. Once that occurs, it's time for mum and dad to relax, set the kids presents under the tree and go to bed ourselves. This is the point where I pray that the kids will sleep in. Right. On Christmas morning? Not a chance.

After gifts have been opened, it's off to my mum's for lunch. This is a small gathering. Thankfully, because by this point I've had just about enough family.

Boxing day is usually the day we have friends over, either to just hang out or we have a potluck. That is usually the day I look forward to the most. Not so much this year. There will be people that I want to have around and I won't be able to. Oh well. I'll make a few phone calls, send a few emails and hope that I catch a couple of them online.

Season's Greetings everyone!

~Karmi~

I've noticed a lot of people using this particular blog thing. So like always Karmi jumps on the bandwagon! Yay!

I don't really have much to write about at the moment. I just wanted to get this thing started. Have no fear though for I will have plenty to write about in the coming weeks, months and maybe even years.

I hope whoever reads this enjoys nonsensical, sleep deprived ramblings.

Enjoy!

Peace(not so much), love (again) and fluffy bunnies (trapped and scared)

~Karmi~