My muse is not so fickle

It seems that I am able to write again. I have no idea how long this will last. Fickle muses annoy me. My ability to write anything half decent seems to come in spurts. Sigh. At least I got one story written and sent off. Hope it's enjoyable. Of course, the inspiration for the story has been coming for the last few weeks. I had the idea, but just couldn't form the words, let alone type them out. I tried yesterday, but to no avail. Bleh. Today the words flowed like water. I started typing and just couldn't stop, which resulted in a longer than usual story for him.

I'm glad he's not grading me on these. Yeesh. I'd fail. Well, maybe not fail, but I wouldn't get a very good mark. He'll just tell me I'm being too hard on myself. Heh. He's one to talk. Always so hard on himself.

Anyway, that's pretty much it. No trip planning updates today.

Right Place Wrong Time

Always with the song titles. Hee.

So, yeah. Things have been pretty uneventful recently(Yay!). My usual talks with *Tyrasis (lol). It seems that our chats have been rather silly recently. Probably because we're both suffering from sleep deprivation. Woohoo! That's always fun! I don't mind one bit. It's nice to have silly little chats every now and then. Especially when things got pretty depressing and um...not so happy for a bit. All on my end. Sigh.

Trip to Illinois update: We have managed to save up enough money to pay for gas, the hotel room and maybe meals for a day or two. Considering that I don't eat breakfast (not in the **"normal" way) and when I'm away from home, I tend to loose my appetite. So, it won't cost much to feed me. There is also the want (and the need) to buy things while there. Why? Because it's Chicago and I need to buy stuff. Find things that I can't get here and bring them home to show people and watch them stare in awe! Oh, what fun it will be.

Right, I think I just made this my happy-and-not-at-all-nervous about the trip blogthing. XD

I have posted my concerns about the trip elsewhere (no, you don't get a link because I'm not ready to share that blog-type thing with anyone.) One person may have already discovered it, but I highly doubt it. Maybe if he had logged in sometime after DECEMBER he'd know about it. Hehehe....just poking fun. Seriously, when I'm ready to share my darker side with people, there will be a linky. Promise. =D

Now, some rather sad and depressing news. There was a shooting at Virginia Tech University today. Somewhere in the vicinity of 32 people killed and even more injured. At least it was the last time I checked it. It may be more. Apparently the shooter was found dead as well, but had no ID on him. Just two 9mm and a whole whack load of ammo. Weeeee!

Have I ever mentioned how much I despise this world in which we live?

At any rate, I'm done for now. I think that this is mostly for my amusement. I have no idea if anyone actually reads this, but judging from the links that have been clicked, someone does. ;)

*Yes, that is a nick.

**I have to wait at least two hours to eat after I wake up or I will be sick all damn day. :(

Flirt With Me

"Sometimes... you can cry until there is nothing wet in you. You can scream and curse to where your throat rebels and ruptures. You can pray, all you want, to whatever God you think will listen. And, still, it makes, no difference. It goes on, with no sign as to when it might release you. And you know that if it ever did relent... it would not be because it cared."

"Honestly, it's so difficult to truly care about so many things without, first, knowing the answers to some of the most fundamental, mind ravaging questions! How can one possibly respect the existence of something, people in this case, when that something seems to defy respect? They do such trivial things, and find amusement, even up to "so-called" maturity, in the incessant mistreatment of their own kind."

JTHM.....

Hello, I'm your Martyr

This was taken from some where else. No, I did not write it.

I say I love you. You don't need to believe me and your belief is not really necessary to me. Odds are that I just needed to say it to get it off my chest. I just wanted you to hear it, whether you believe it or not. I know it's true. I can feel it in the way my heart beats faster when you're around. I know it by the hole that's left behind when you're not. The truth is an ache I feel to have you by my side. It's the comfort of knowing that you care. It's the perfect bliss I experience when you touch me. I know it's true. You probably do to.

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Lying in my bed
I hear the clock tick,
and think of you
caught up in circles
confusion-- is nothing new
Flashback--warm nights--
almost left behind
suitcases of memories, time after--

sometimes you picture me--
I'm walking too far ahead
you're calling to me,
I can't hear what you've said--
Then you say--go slow--
I fall behind--
the second hand unwinds

if you're lost you can look--
and you will find me
time after time
if you fall I will catch you--
I'll be waiting
time after time